Tänään on ollut hyvä päivä. Ei mitenkään hurjan erikoinen, mutta hyvä kumminkin. Aamu alkoi ajotunnilla, joka sujui oikein näppärästi, vaikka muutaman virheen teinkin. Ajo-opettajani sanoi minun näyttävän aivan Lucia neidolta näin Lucian päivän kunniaksi, kerrankin jotain positiivistä, piristi! Tosiaan sen teorianhan pääsin sitten toisella kerralla läpi, helposti. 23.12 olisi sitten inssin vuoro, kieltämättä hieman pelottaa ja myös suututtaa, koska jos en jostain ylitsepääsemättömästä syystä pääsisikään läpi menee siinä sen päivän lisäksi koko joulu piloille! Yksikään inssittäjä ei voi olla niin julma. Ja sen vielä sanon, että on se ihan eri homma ajaa inssi jossain Vantaan perukoilla kuin Kallion ahtailla kaduilla missä kakkosvaihteelle siirtyminen varsinkin näin talvisaikaan on vain jäätänyt harhakuva. Mutta ainakin osaan sitten ajaa.
Toinen mukava asia oli tänään se, kun menimme ystävättäreni kanssa eräälle luokkalaisellemme opiskelemaan hieman normittamista sekä Pearsonin korrelaatiokerrointa. Luokkalaisemme kämppis teki meille oikeen maistuvaa jauhelihakastiketta ja etsimme kadonnutta laskinta ties kuinka kauan kunnes se löytyi sohvan välistä. Näin kuvailtuna ilta ei välttämättä kuulosta hirmuisen hauskalta spektaakkelilta, mutta oikein lystikästä meillä kumminkin oli. Jännä kun pienet asiat, niin kuin hyvä ruoka, saavat todella paljon paremmalle mielelle.
Onneksi koulua on enää 4 päivää ja sitä seuraa kuukauden joululoma, tulee tarpeeseen! Olisi paljon asioita mitkä vaatisivat selvittämistä ja aikaa. Toisaalta, johtaako samojen asioiden useampaan kertaan vatvominen ikinä parempaan lopputulokseen? Pitäisikö joidenkin asioiden vaan antaa olla. Tuli mieleen yläasteen biologian tunneilta sellainen käsite kuin luonnonvalinta. Toimiiko joku tälläinen automaattisuus myös ihmisten välisissä suhteissa, kannattaako toisista koittaa pitää kiinni kynsin ja hampain ja tavallaan tapella jotain sellaista vastaan mikä tuntuu jo olevan päätetty toisin jonkun muun toimesta? Itsehän en ole luovuttaja persoona, mutta sen tajuaminen, että on asioita joihin ei enää pysty itse mitenkään vaikuttamaan ärsyttää kyllä kovasti. Elämä on niin kovin hetkellistä, pitäisi vain ymmärtää nauttia joka hetkestä, koska milloinkaan ei tiedä, mikä on se viimeinen.
maanantai 13. joulukuuta 2010
maanantai 6. joulukuuta 2010
If I ever feel better
Miten niin moni asia voi kaatua päälle samaan aikaan. Ei varmaan tarvitse enempää selitellä, alla oleva biisi kertoo kaiken oleelisen. Joskus toiset sanovat asiat paremmin mitä itse ikinä pystyisi.
They say an end can be a start
Feel like I've been buried yet I'm still alive
It's like a bad day that never ends
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There are things in my life that I can't control
They say love ain't nothing but a sore
I don't even know what love is
Too many tears have had to fall
Don't you know I'm so tired of it all
I have known terror dizzy spells
Finding out the secrets words won't tell
Whatever it is it can't be named
There's a part of my world that's in the way
You know I don't want to be clever
To be brilliant or superior
True like ice, true like fire
Now I know that a breeze can blow me away
Now I know there's much more dignity
In defeat than in the brightest victory
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know
Hang on to the good days
I can lean on my friends
They help me going through hard times
But I'm feeding the enemy
I'm in league with the foe
Blame me for what's happening
I can try, I can try, I can try...
No one knows the hard times I went through
If happiness came I miss the call
The stormy days ain't over
I've tried and lost know I think that I pay the cost
Now I've watched all my castles fall
They were made of dust, after all
Someday all this mess will make me laugh
I can wait, I can wait, I can wait...
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know
It's like somebody took my place
I ain't even playing my own game
The rules have changed well I didn't know
There are things in my life I can't control
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There's a part of my life that will go away
Dark is the night, cold is the ground
In the circular solitude of my heart
As one who strives a hill to climb
I am sure I'll come through I don't know how
They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know
They say an end can be a start
Feel like I've been buried yet I'm still alive
It's like a bad day that never ends
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There are things in my life that I can't control
They say love ain't nothing but a sore
I don't even know what love is
Too many tears have had to fall
Don't you know I'm so tired of it all
I have known terror dizzy spells
Finding out the secrets words won't tell
Whatever it is it can't be named
There's a part of my world that's in the way
You know I don't want to be clever
To be brilliant or superior
True like ice, true like fire
Now I know that a breeze can blow me away
Now I know there's much more dignity
In defeat than in the brightest victory
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know
Hang on to the good days
I can lean on my friends
They help me going through hard times
But I'm feeding the enemy
I'm in league with the foe
Blame me for what's happening
I can try, I can try, I can try...
No one knows the hard times I went through
If happiness came I miss the call
The stormy days ain't over
I've tried and lost know I think that I pay the cost
Now I've watched all my castles fall
They were made of dust, after all
Someday all this mess will make me laugh
I can wait, I can wait, I can wait...
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know
It's like somebody took my place
I ain't even playing my own game
The rules have changed well I didn't know
There are things in my life I can't control
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There's a part of my life that will go away
Dark is the night, cold is the ground
In the circular solitude of my heart
As one who strives a hill to climb
I am sure I'll come through I don't know how
They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know
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